Feeling Anxious About Staying in Or Going Out

Today I was stressing over like I do daily because I wanted to go out but anxious about it and when I plan a day indoors I get anxious about that. I went out and feels good that I didn't listen to the voice of doubt and journaled whilst having a ice coffee and a Bacon and Brie Panini. I don't have this all the time but now and then and then went to a view the shops, picked up a milk shake for my son and now home and sigh feeling, "So good I listened to my gut and ignored the voice of doubt". 

Our minds control us physically but the gut is the ruler of the body when it comes to getting up and if something feels good or bad and makes the decisions. From my own experience I stop listening to the doubt to say "No, get out" and I feel in control more now, when the anxiousness creeps in. 

Each week when editing a blog I have self doubt because of feeling "Will anyone read it?" or "Will I complete it and be successful". There was no such thing in my childhood and a young adult, like there was no Youtube, no streaming and so I had no idea of what this was until I read a book and my colleagues showed me Youtube and creating a website and it is a strange world.

Editing my books "Will anybody read it?" "Does it make sense?" but I now when I get these thoughts, tell myself its the tail of the story that matters and is relatable. It is a nervous thing because you do feel somewhat Vulnerable, but feel proud in that I have what it takes to put a book together and I love writing and I enjoy creating stories and enjoy writing blogs, so now I have learned to turn the anxiousness into excitement and building a positive self belief. 

Did you know that Roy Keane who is now a Pundit and played for Manchester United got nervous before playing in a match? I had no idea and you would never have thought it, but yes and I remember when listening to Mel Robbins who said the human mind does no the difference between excitement and feeling scared so the inner doubt is a source of protection and gut is what comes through that stirs you on. This is from my own body and mind. 

It can wear you down and be like a parasite. It niggles at your and when something does go wrong you get that "told yourself". This makes me think of the Joker in Batman smirking at you but once you fight it, it can go and things won't go to plan. 

I hope this helps if you too get super anxious all the time and get some comfort that you aren't alone in having anxious about everything and believe you can control it.

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X 

Spending Time At A Garden Centre

Today I met with my mum at Morden Hall which is situated in Morden has a lovely park where you can walk, a cafe if you fancy a coffee and a shop. 

I am loving putting my Journal together and so bought some greeting cards, some nice cookies, and a purse to help organize a bag with.

I took the bus and then walked and had a coffee with my mum, did a bit of shopping and then got bus back and its nice to be in a different environment. I love a Garden Centre. The one in Chessington do Christmas events and took my son to one one year and it was brilliant, as they did have Santa there.

Being on my laptop all day does me no good. I love writing and sharing my life online, but I also like some quiet time and not film. It's taking in the moment and just concentrate on where I am presently out and I like the bus ride to Morden from Epsom, listening to an audio book or music and looking out of the window. ,

Morden Hall park is very big and you can walk through it where there is a pond and walked all the way to Colliers Wood before now and there is a farm nearby. A popular walk for families, dogs and joggers. Even cycling and then there is the walk to Wimbledon. It is quite a distance but my son and I have done it and you can get the 200 bus from Mitcham to Raynes park, from Colliers Wood that takes you Wimbledon and from Colliers wood to London. The 219 goes all they way to Clapham Junction which my son and I have been on as my son loves Buses and trains and it is a good ride and then can continue on getting the 156 to Battersea and Vauxhall. 

Also to Kingston from Collierswood. You can get the 131, 219 to Wimbledon and 57 to Kingston. If you'd like to Richmond then you can bet those buses into Wimbledon to get the 493 to Richmond, or 93 to Putney Bridge. 

I love shops that have little Knick Knacks and good places to find gifts.

So yes feel it is good to visit a garden centre even if you not a gardener. 

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X

Wimbledon is Finished For Another Year

It is another year over for Wimbledon Tennis and it seems to go so fast. I really joined this year and looked forward to it seeing many Wimbledon shops celebrating the occasion being such a historic tournament. 

Our men (GBR) doubles team won. I would fantasize me playing in Wimbledon as its one sport I would watch from being a young child, even before I got into loving football. I would love to get tickets to watch a live match and I did work for a while as a temp for the International Tennis Federation. A lot of work behind the scenes and I worked in the finance department. 

When my son was a baby he loved it and helped him settle for dinner time. We do play it together and yesterday we were trying to play badminton. We were very good and so practiced just one at a time hitting the shuttlecock. At school I was told I was good when playing tennis and should join a club. This never happened and so my dream of winning Wimbledon, all in my head and so had to accept that winning Wimbledon is not to be, but hope one day I can take my son and I to Wimbledon Tennis even if it just the once. 

How they managed to play during the heat I do not know and it so good to see that many celebrities watching tennis at Wimbledon. Shows how big the tournament it is and why it is difficult to get tickets. 

Tom Cruise has been there. Not sure if he did this year but he a usual visitor along with Richard E Grant, Cliff Richard and Jon Bon Jovi and they did a feature on the TV Day show This morning about wearing white and Trinny was there asking what many spectators were wearing....being a monumented event and famous all over the world. 

So its the Euros for our ladies and so see what happens....I have learned to not predict when it comes to competitions and be surprised of what may happen. 

Have a good week 

Many thanks for reading, 

Carrie X  

Going to the theatre

Theatre according to searching on Google, began in ancient Greece. In the London it began in 1576. 

As a kid it was a magical experience and would go a lot to see shows like Rupert the Bear, Buttermoon, Keith and Orvil and my favourite double act Cannon and Ball. 

At the weekend we took Henry, my mum and I to the Polka Theatre to see The Boy With Wings, which is a book written by Sir Lenny Henry. This week went to see the Rocky Horror Show starring Jason Donovan and it was so good. He is so funny and first played Dr Frank-N-Furter in the Rocky Horror Show in 1998 and in thinking I have never watched the whole of the film and would like to go and see the show again. 

I liked old films of Judy Garland and Gene Kelly in films where they performed together in the theatre and pray the theatres never die with, the modern world but I think it has got bigger and better

I have always wanted to work in theatre or create a musical and is a great thing to do. 

There are sites like, Love Theatre where they do offers of tickets and where my mum and I booked tickets to see shows and pantomimes. 

It is good to see some great actors. Seeing Burnie Winters with Sue Pollard at the Lyric Theatre in Hammersmith, Bradley Walsh, Bryan Conley and last years was starring Alexandra Burke and Joe Pasquale and would love to see the Prat Pack with Joe, Bryan, Shane Richie and Bradley Walsh.

There was a time where many theatre's had closed and was hit by Lockdown, but now it has become a regular thing for many people and I love it. 

It is good to meet friends and we went to the pub before hand, going to The Rocky Horror show, near the theatre, which was really busy for a Tuesday and had no air con but it was still a good evening and the theatre in terms of drinks and food can be expensive, but great as a treat and if you want to spend a lot or not. 

We have gone to the Rose Theatre in Kingston too, that mainly do children shows. I took my son there to see Zog and Blippi if you know who they are and my husband and I have seen shows at Epsom Playhouse. We went to see a show called The Story of Roy Orbison and many TV and Films have become musicals like Only Fools and Horses, Dirty Dancing, Mamma Mia and musicals that have become Films, like Les Miserable, Phantom of the Opera, Wicked and Comedians like Dawn French are doing One Woman Shows. 

Many Comedians and Actors have gone from doing Stand up or TV to theatre, like Jason Donovan, , Jason Mansford, David Hasselhoff, Bryan Conley, Joe Pasquale, who's starred in theatre show, Some Mothers to 'ave em and Amanda Holden and has made many people turn their careers to a whole new level. Its versatility and a new experience. I saw Les Dennis in Me and My Girl and was dying to go and see it and never knew he could sing and it was so good that I had a new level of respect for him. 

It is a great to give as a gift and takes you away from the hustle and bustle of life and do something different even if it once or twice a year. 

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X 

What My Life Looks like on a Thursday

Hello it is Thursday that I begin this blog. It has been a good day. My son has his Afterschool club so whilst he is at school, usually pop out and begin to wind down as we approach Friday, ready for the weekend. 

I like to get up a little later than normal, have a takeaway sometimes when my son finishes his club afterschool or my husband will cook. 

Today my mum and step dad came over as we are having to sort out the garden fence, but I will prefilm for my Youtube Channel Financial Living and do a bit of cleaning and a tidying. 

It is good to do bits that I have managed to do at the beginning of the week, like catching up with my blogs, do a bit of shopping for the following week as on Friday I go over with my son, my home in Wimbledon where my mum and step dad live and it is good to do non computer stuff like going through my clothes, writing in my journal and go to a coffee shop to write, if I don't do it on Tuesday and spend some time outdoors. 

That is what my Thursday's look like. It good to wind down for the weekend and get my devices and spend time with my son and family and work by my own timetable. I like to have a simple dinner, if I don't need to cook then I don't, if I can spend time reading in the garden then I will and if I can just chill and recharge ready for the next week. 

I like to catch up on Youtube videos I have to watch and we've been watching The Hustle on BBC iPlayer and on Thursday's we, my husband and I have been watching the Genius Game on ITV x. It was good not seen traitors, which is supposed to be similar and was struggling to understand the challenges they had to do. 

So that is what me and my life on Thursdays. What does your life look like on Thursday as apparently its replaced Fridays for going out. I like my days in unless it is to see a concert like we, as I continue this blog went to see Billy Idol on Tuesday, but Thursday's, no.

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X 

I am still on a buzz

So I can't believe that lastnight (Tuesday 24th June 2025, continuing this blog on 26th June 2025) happened. My husband and I went to see Billy Idol and it was fantastic. He is something special and played his music this morning. I am still full of excitement and wish I could relive it. I know he is in his 70's but it goes to show that if you follow your dreams that success is out there and you can achieve your dreams and have longevity. 

I wanted to share footage but it didn't allowing me to, so here is a photo I took of Billy on stage. It was at the Wembley Arena in London and I was a bit nervous because the terrace we were seated in, was quite steep but didn't allow it to affect my enjoyment.

We went to see him in 2014 at the Hammersmith Apollo (we meaning my husband and I and my brother in law who didn't come this time as he passed away) but it was too small and you could hardly see him. 

I love a concert and so not sure if we will see him again but who knows. The Next person and band I'd like to see live in concert is the High Flying Birds with Noel Gallagher, who sings with this band and great partnership. 

Each year I like to go to a concert and would love to go to a music festival again and perhaps the one in Hyde Park if they do it again. Stevie wonder is at Hyde Park on the 12th of July but the tickets are way out of my price range https://www.bst-hydepark.com/events/stevie-wonder-sat-12-july/. You do have to get in quick as the tickets to sell out fast and I have too many other commitments, but it is worth it if you book a ticket and make a day of it, and also the weather is good. 

It was really nice and not too hot. There are places to eat. My husband and I had Five Guys and was good as we didn't spend a lot. I had also bought a T-Shirt from the Merchandise stall and they great to have as they do last a long time and its not everyday I am gonna see Billy Idol so for me it was great value.

So it good evening and still buzzed and think will be highlight for 2025 so far.

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X 

Genius TV

I watched a really good interview yesterday it was the actor who played Betty in Some Mothers Do Ave em and Michael Crawford who played Frank Spencer.

https://youtu.be/3GDrUqz7UBc?si=1w_GBqKjg7iHRYrV

It was Genius TV and was interesting of Michael creating Frank Spencer and they never really talked about it until the interview I have linked. 

It was such innocent TV because you felt that Frank Spencer had good intentions but it never quite went to plan and that was the genius part. Michael Crawford did his own stunts and no way could he do it now. It shows how different TV is now and Some Mothers Do Ave Em was one of the best comedies and sitcoms that was ever created.

I love seeing TV being put together and I went to a few recordings, such as Blind Date, Strike It Reach, a show called Big Big Talent Show and Night at the Palladium and strictly come dancing and was so good to see TV being developed and hearing actors talk about shows like Ashes to Ashes, Life On Mars and films like Superman and so inspiring. 

It is such a massive process and some TV you forget but others that you remember like they it were yesterday and me and my husband and I have started watching The BBC series The Hustle again starring Robert Vaughn, Adrian Lester, Robert Glenister (brother of Phil Glenister), Marc Warren and Jaime Murray.

Then Mat Di Angelo and Kelly Adams and would loved have been able to see it filmed as it is such great TV and clever. 

They did do a behind the scenes at one point showing Doctor Who being filmed. Also Friends when they did episodes in London and still watch them. It is a shame some actors have now passed away, but never to be forgotten. 

What TV programme have you watched that you feel is Genius TV. You can comment below. 

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X