Today I was stressing over like I do daily because I wanted to go out but anxious about it and when I plan a day indoors I get anxious about that. I went out and feels good that I didn't listen to the voice of doubt and journaled whilst having a ice coffee and a Bacon and Brie Panini. I don't have this all the time but now and then and then went to a view the shops, picked up a milk shake for my son and now home and sigh feeling, "So good I listened to my gut and ignored the voice of doubt".
Our minds control us physically but the gut is the ruler of the body when it comes to getting up and if something feels good or bad and makes the decisions. From my own experience I stop listening to the doubt to say "No, get out" and I feel in control more now, when the anxiousness creeps in.
Each week when editing a blog I have self doubt because of feeling "Will anyone read it?" or "Will I complete it and be successful". There was no such thing in my childhood and a young adult, like there was no Youtube, no streaming and so I had no idea of what this was until I read a book and my colleagues showed me Youtube and creating a website and it is a strange world.
Editing my books "Will anybody read it?" "Does it make sense?" but I now when I get these thoughts, tell myself its the tail of the story that matters and is relatable. It is a nervous thing because you do feel somewhat Vulnerable, but feel proud in that I have what it takes to put a book together and I love writing and I enjoy creating stories and enjoy writing blogs, so now I have learned to turn the anxiousness into excitement and building a positive self belief.
Did you know that Roy Keane who is now a Pundit and played for Manchester United got nervous before playing in a match? I had no idea and you would never have thought it, but yes and I remember when listening to Mel Robbins who said the human mind does no the difference between excitement and feeling scared so the inner doubt is a source of protection and gut is what comes through that stirs you on. This is from my own body and mind.
It can wear you down and be like a parasite. It niggles at your and when something does go wrong you get that "told yourself". This makes me think of the Joker in Batman smirking at you but once you fight it, it can go and things won't go to plan.
I hope this helps if you too get super anxious all the time and get some comfort that you aren't alone in having anxious about everything and believe you can control it.
Many thanks for reading,
Carrie X